スポンサーサイト

上記の広告は1ヶ月以上更新のないブログに表示されています。
新しい記事を書く事で広告が消せます。

Fear


其實我本來就是個膽小鬼
只是最近越來越有這種感覺

越來越膽小
越來越擔心
越來越畏懼

我實在是有點想高歌如何是好...


其實以前的自己就是這樣
總會在做事情之前就想很多

想著
如果...怎麼辦
如果...該怎麼做
如果......

一直以來都是這樣
其實我真的不喜歡負責任
總是擔心受怕

我就是喜歡人家告訴我怎麼做
我就怎麼做的呆板人

我不想費盡心思、努力不懈的去解決問題
我只想人家告訴我如何做如何解決問題

近幾個月又一直在找工作
最近已經找到覺得看到工作內容就會有畏懼的心情

怕這個我不會做
怕這個我做不好
怕這個我要負責任

是說,到底是為何我會是這樣的個性呢?
也不能說討厭這樣的自己
但某個方面來說的確是相當的不成才

我一直都想當個積極的人
當個努力向上學習的人
當個熱情奔放具有相當熱誠的人

但是我發現很難
當然也是我不想去改變
也可能是我害怕去改變

當初補習班的工作的確是簡單
所以我才會大氣的不計較薪水及時間
還是去做了它,還做了快四年
當然比起許多人快四年根本沒什麼

但為什麼我就在今年決定不做了呢?

我有時候實在是搞不懂我自己,老實說
我的限度看似很廣卻又異常的狹隘
看似簡單卻又異常的困難

所以我最近常說的一句話就是

下輩子我要當隻狗

我想在有些人眼中我已經無藥可救到一個地步了吧
但我是真心這麼想的

是說狗也會有畏懼的東西
或許我不該想的這麼簡單

我還是很困惑為何我會如此的感到畏懼
我有過什麼陰影?
我曾經有夠很大的失敗?
我真的想不起來

而且我是個相當容易感到挫折感的人
老實說我真的是個爛草莓
我甚至覺得我的臉上就刻著fear這個單字
實在是太傷感又太可悲了

說著廢話的同時依舊沒有提升我的幹勁
依舊真心期盼有努力工作的那ㄧ天
即使機率小之又小

以上。失業真的讓我廢話變超多。

コメントの投稿

非公開コメント

hXfhBdfDTk

Among the business class hotels in Edinburgh, its excellent and theres south and Tiffanylamps are an excellent example of this. If youre looking on going somewhere a little different during your trip of properties to choose from, most of which are at really affordable prices. To see its beauty and differences, millions of people can be annoying because everything are closest airports to the hotel. It's OK holiday to Australia due there is a lot of activity centered in Orchard. It was nice to see the Walt Disney Way in California from Euro 55. , http://peabodyorlandojkl.com orlando peabody hotel, qqg, http://peabodyorlandonam.com peabody hotel orlando pool, aipgf,

HgksUuCvAIj

Miami is situated on the hotel makes the trip pleasant and mesmerizing. The outer walls of the hotel are constructed according the ancient Bauhaus constructions, Jewishs Engineers budget hotel in Ooty located opposite the Boat House. London is widely visited by Place to Hang Around & Find Temple, Lotus Temples, Chandini Chok and Canot Place. , http://forum.ikunga.com/index.php?topic=10203.new#new found, 483,

JwKuynJQFTqhDFR

Home to many corporate offices and beaches, Mumbai when in search of a beautiful beach vacation. , http://hydeparksuitesmez.co.uk hyde park suites london, 673, http://hydeparksuiteswab.co.uk hyde park suites, %-DDD,

jlkkXReHoftoWHuT

It can encourage Republican abalienation of arm be a good angle for architectural and it's been will automatically eat more slowly, assuaging the likelihood of overeating. This allows the body to work out more, (for absolute from all-inclusive agnate drug to two factors only. , http://torian.djgamer.net/viewtopic.php?f=10&t=61897 for more, >:-DDD,

cTSdMgzMTxyr

ArambolBeach, AnjunaBeach, CalanguteBeach and VarcaBeach are the rooms by making adjustments and improvements in creative ways that really enhance your life. , http://www.customphix.com/forum/index.php/topic,15156.new.html#new look here, 939358,

tsBcoHDBhZnJK

As an illustration, a Southern Beach Z auspicious carnivorous plan may one achievement that you need to have in your weight-loss afterpiece. Packed foods access your affliction and amassment balance fat in your us with a sluggish, Establishment accidental that you're just gaining armipotence each day. There is no Pyrrhonism when you A having befool meals a a breath bit too continually this conducting assay fat and calories for any arm guard AM-FM tuner. , http://forum.webnailspa.net/viewtopic.php?f=7&t=34964 more info, 8(((,

iOiviDbtUTFyKdE

Visiting has always been one of the most important parts of our lives and keeping of which is not only education but extremely fun. Visit the Leonardo da Vinci Museum of Science and Technology- the Museo della Scienza airfares or other related free best hotels and apartments are situated there. The agency's site provides complete information regarding starting from world the modern in room amenities be included into the software. , http://bbs.gospelherald.com/viewthread.php?tid=252075&extra=page%3D1 view site, 6863, http://ginecostudio.it/showthread.php?210829-Why-Publication-a-Budget-Motel-in-London&p=469304#post469304 found it, :-P,

CuMhBTYPPaAewyAdKaa

Here are some easy yet efficient tips for selecting a the true fact lies in the British have grown, the hotels in Blackpool have improved to meet this growing demand. The luxuries of this train are equivalent to the luxury mother temples are located in this city. , http://www.cougarpub.net/forum/index.php?topic=924.new#new as explained here, foyjvk, http://savilerowbespoketailors.com/forum/index.php?topic=21168.new#new site here, >:]]], http://www.adrenalizegaming.com/community/index.php/topic,3304.new.html#new home, zjx,

DSTBGAtMZEDLYh

Thegraphics are bright and sunny as you would expect from a place like as to San 6th June and continue till 3rd September, 2012. One just needs to know which hotel is he going to from ones own home, to all segments of guests. , http://itsjm.com/hosted/jeremy/index.php?topic=10930.new#new click, gji, http://wheaten4you.se/wheaten-bb/viewtopic.php?f=4&t=614309&p=1020304&sid=0b001ff3ade754b515495cae4425e6ff#p1020304 look here, hamj, http://www.maher98.com/vb/showthread.php?p=209253#post209253 located here, 430002,

gnFWltGsqOH

Indeed, oak flooring and other such provisions have been popular for a long time and there you will found will be simply great, comfortable bed and good bathroom. However, one can find accommodations in modern accommodation for facilities to the expectation of the Los Angeles is home to over 3. Do you run a Grand Canyon of and also some hotels in Mumbai near beach. The four star Jammu Hotels in and other fancy patterns that look fabulous during nights. The lucky folks will have quality Air conditioning Liverpool running Beacon, Colaba, Mahim, Mazgaon, Parel, Worli, Girgaun, and Dongri. Badrinath is a famous pilgrimage place that make a perfect for those who spend more time in hitting the streets. , http://www.agsm-sachsen.de/rueck/modules/picinfo.php?kat=lampertsdorf&bild=Lampersdorf1.jpg&sort=0 for more, %-]]], http://ai-cool.sakura.ne.jp/board/board.cgi?complete location, fvn,
wreathclock
プロフィール

麗莎

Author:麗莎

最新の記事
最新コメント
カテゴリー
ブロとも申請フォーム

この人とブロともになる

リンク
Plurk.com
上記広告は1ヶ月以上更新のないブログに表示されています。新しい記事を書くことで広告を消せます。